Letter to A Lover

My Love,

When at night, your body,

wrapped in mine

undulates,

I feel the waves in my heart

like an ocean,

tossed.

I feel the immense sea,

swallowing me up…

and I find myself

wanting

to drown in it

forever.

When, in the morning,

you kiss me

upon awaking,

and I realize

my bed is no longer the lonely place it used to be,

I am

aroused

by you, my Love.

In the future,

you will take me to romantic places—

Paris,

Venice,

Normandy…

but the most romantic moments I find with you

are when

I see nothing else around me

save your eyes,

those windows to your soul.

Your deep looking into my own

becomes a magnetic force,

drawing me

to you;

lifting my spirit up

out of myself,

and making me come

alive again.

Our love has been

uncomplicated,

and so many times

I have tried to make sense of that.

But you set me straight

with your simple words,

your handsome smile,

your touch,

and your spirit.

Your heart is open still,

I know…

our Creator has put within it

the love

that has kept my own heart

alive,

the love

that leaves me wanting

your love.

And wanting more…

and more…

and more…of you.

I love you.

Distance

My Love,
Do not hold it against me
When I tell you
I need my solitude
My Silence
My Self.
Do not call me selfish
For distancing myself from you.
I am not taking away my love.
But letting it expand
In my heart
In my self.
When I am alone in my silence,
My solitude,
I realize then
That I need you.
Yet when I am with you,
Sometimes, I don't see that.
How much I need you.
In those times,
I need to step away
Away from you
Away from the world
Away from everything.
So that I may return
A better lover
A better friend
A better me
And better for you.
So do not hold it against me
For staying in this quiet moment
This lonely place
For when I do,
I long to return
To you in full
And when I do,
You'll know my love.
You'll know,
My Love.

Drawn

I am drawn to the heat of Your Love

Like an artist draws his grand piece

I am drawn to the warmth of your light

Like the earth, when it draws on the seas.

I am drawn to the kiss of your lips

Like a moth is drawn to a flame

I am drawn to the heat of your passion

Like a warrior is drawn to the fray.

I am drawn to the needs of your ache

Like a mother is drawn to her young

I am drawn; am consumed by your beauty

Like the moon is ever drawn to the Sun.

But You Do

You don’t have to love me, but You do

You don’t have to want me, yet You do.

You don’t have to make my life this

Work of art that it’s become, but You do.

…and I thank You.

Thank You for loving me, just the way I am

I’ve traveled far, yet always come back home

Because I can

Because You’ve given me this place inside your heart

With You, it’s been perfect from the start

…and I thank You.

Silence Speaks

Silence speaks to me in something

Like a shattered drop of dew

Splashing wetness and revealing

That there is more to dream; to do

Silence speaks to me like thunder

Booming through its absent voice

Still for awhile; yet I can hear it

Asking me to make a choice.

Moments

If I look back on the past, there is much hurt there

If I look toward the future; I am blind

And so, I live only in this moment

For it is here that I always find

He gives enough love for my quivering heart

He gives enough grace for my feeble knees

He knows all my weaknesses; better, my strengths

He knows all the moments I need.

Small Petition

Lord, another day has risen

Let the sun climb high into the sky

Lord, another day has given

Reason to my life, to my heartcry.

Let me never wander from the light

Thrust me into where you’ll have me be

Another day for serving and for living

Another day for learning to love Thee.

Alone...and Free!

When there is no one left to call,

The telephone, it hardly rings

The silence is unusual,

For I have seared attachment strings

I lie awake, in silence, thinking

Of what it’s like to be alone

Too many years, I have spent like this

In solitude, and far from home.

Direction comes from inner feelings

Of warmth that no human form can give

In the quietness, truth speaks softly

Of what it really means to live.

Independent—free, at last!

Free to be what I’m made for

Free to let go of my past

And free to love once more.

Take Me Now

Take me now, as I am nothing

Lead me where You need me be

In humility, I kneel, surrendered

To Your highest Will for me.

Grant of me that I may offer

This gift to You; my last small tears

All I have left, I surrender

Life has stripped my finest years

And yet, this cup, not passed from me

I drink, refilled with Hope Divine

Surrender to You is true freedom

And all You have, You have made mine.

So take me now; this cup is empty

Take me, ever forward, still

This prayer is to be surrendered

Break me; make me what You will.

(8 Dec. 2007)

Lover's Whisper

From the silence of my breaking heart,

From pieces torn and scattered far,

I try to find some sense, some beauty

Inside, I wonder where You are.

If You were here, I’d not be broken

If You were here, I’d not be pained

If I could hear the words You’ve spoken,

Perhaps my heart would not be maimed.

And then, I feel Your arms around me

Before Your lips kiss my tear-stained cheek

“Your beauty comes from being broken,”

Are the strange words I hear You speak.

“Had you been whole, and not so shattered,

Had you been strong, and not like this,

Had you been steady, not so scattered,

You would not know my deepest kiss.”

My Happy Place

Night by night

Where shadows dim

Beneath the Light

Try to sink in,

You lead me where

The twilight ends

And a sunrise beams

When dawn descends.

My darkest hour

Never too bleak

It’s there I find

The Voice I seek

It’s where I know

You face to face

Where Night becomes

My Happy Place.

For a Foolish Lover

Last night, I dreamed it was your face

Only, we were in another place

And in your hand, held warmly there

Was another’s grasp; another’s care.

You spoke to me; I looked at you

As usual, not knowing what to do

How did I meet you in my dreams

Only to find this bizarre scene?

You kissed her, then you walked away

There was nothing left to say

Your spirit spoke it loud and clear:

“Do not try to find me here.”

To My Greatest Love:

Even though I have been silent

These past few days,

Know that I have thought of us.

Know that I have thought of You

--Your truth,

Your Faithfulness,

Your deep care for me.

You never forget,

And that’s what I love so much about You.

You are perfect

And when I surrender to You,

Laying my heart at your feet,

I know

That that’s exactly where I always want to be.

Life, With You

Life with You is:

Unpredictable, yet constant.

Where the excitement leads, I never really know.

Life with you is:

Sometimes lonely, yet always complete.

It’s not everyone who understands

The need to travel down this path,

But I find,

In this solitude,

Reason for being.

Life with You is:

Vibrant.

Whether deep contrasts of color

Or rich blacks and whites.

No shades of grey.

For shadows are merely dimensions.

Life with You is:

Magical.

If fairy tales have happy endings,

Then ours is “Ever After”.

Life with You is:

The Ultimate Challenge.

As the years go by and I get to know You better,

Your personality,

I realize that our relationship has stood

In spite of obstacles,

Threats,

Persecutions.

Life with You is:

Life that makes one think of destiny.

Purpose.

The meaning of it all.

Life with You is:

Surreal.

The goodness of Your Love

Leaves me at times in awe

That I could be so blessed.

Life with You is:

A party!

Crazy!

Wicked!

Life with You is:

Delicious.

A feast for all my senses.

Each day,

Not just a bite

But a buffet of exquisite cuisine.

Life with You is:

A journey.

Not rushed; not hurried.

Just a journey enjoyed.

And life with You is ALL.

All complete.

All ill ever need.

If there is life after life,

That’s more that what I’m wishing for

If there’s Love after this,

What bliss!

Surrender to You,

To Your mind, to Your Spirit,

Has left me only wanting

Much more than Your kiss.

I love You, Jesus.